It’s been awhile. When I started this blog I had every intention of writing everything down. Things got busy, the nutrition appointments were boring, so I stopped. I’m back tonight to update. I left off at my second appointment. I completed the nutrition appointments and the psychology appointment. The psychology appointment was interesting. Sitting in a room with an older lady trying to explain why I want to be thinner. She asked a bunch of questions and was told that she had a few concerns. I’m a people pleaser. She had concerns of me eating to make people happy. After the face to face meeting I was given a 150 question test to fill out. One of the weirdest tests I’ve ever taken. As I was leaving the meeting I was stopped by office personal and asked if I had a personal physician. Of course I had already given them Dr. Hernandez’s name and number, but they needed two years of medical data, or pictures that went back 3 years. I had one more appointment with the nutritionist and I was wasn’t very confident going into the appointment. Total I lost 2.5 pounds over the three months. I was done with the pre assessment appointments. I then had to sit and wait. I waited for over a month before I heard anything. Then one day I got a letter in the mail from my insurance company. My surgery had been approved. Then I waited for the doctor’s office to call back. Two more weeks went by and no call. I called the doctor’s office myself and was routed back to the nutrition clinic. So again I waited. A few days later I got a call telling me the surgery had been approved and I now needed to meet with the doctor. However he was out-of-town for two weeks. Today I had my appointment today. I scheduled my appointment for the 17th of August. I tried to talk with my floor supervisor this afternoon after going to the hospital to complete all the pre surgery tests and pre registration. So I’m set to go. I have one and a half weeks to prepare and get my mind-set. Next Wednesday there is a class I have to attend and then I will check in at 5:30 in the morning on Monday. Scared, nervous, excited? Not yet, give me a few days to let it sink in.
Monday was a busy day and the rest of the week wasn’t much better, but here it is Friday and I’ve made it through. I did go to my nutritionist appointment on Monday and well as have some labs done. I had a whole whooping 0.1 pound loss, but at least I didn’t gain. She went over my log book and chastised my sweet tooth tendencies. For the most part the appointment went well. The diet that I am learning is a bit different from my usual diets and I’m having to learn to eat a protein with snacks and only if I need a snack. With Jenny and Weight Watchers they were such big supporters of two snacks daily that were “good” for you like fruit or veggies. Now I’m having to learn to really push the three meals every day and protein, protein, protein. I did skip I think two meals last month and was given the lecture on how that must not happen post surgery. In fact I shouldn’t go more than 5 hours without eating and every time I eat it should contain some protein. The office also called me on Thursday to schedule my physiologist appointment. So at the end of May I will have completed step 2 and have only one more month of seeing the nutritionist. I will see her again after the surgery, but I’m required to see her for three months before the surgery. I had a co-worker ask me at work last week if I were nervous about the surgery. I’m not really nervous yet. I guess part of me knows that I could still be turned down and that at any time I can change my mind. Most of all I’m just ready to be healthy. My ankle has been tender lately and I’m wondering how much of this pain is weight related.
Well month one is behind me. I have to learn to stop eating sweets, that one will be hard. The other thing that I’m still having trouble with is my sparkling water. That has to go too and drinking with straws. My coffee is now half decaf and I’m a bit grumpy during my shifts. I hope co-workers will forgive me as I struggle through the changes I need to make.
Okay, so I’ve started a new blog on a different website. Why? Because I’m not much of a runner right now and I’m beginning a new journey that I keep a journal of. As before this blog is basically for me, to document my journey on a weight loss adventure I’m planning on taking. I’m excited, but I feel guilty. I’m hopeful, but scared. I’m ready and I want to do well. How can I be the best person I can be if I’m not happy with the person I see in the mirror every morning? So, here I am and I’ll promise to do the best I can in trying to be consistent and post at least one a month. I may post more often if the need arises or I just need to vent. I’m not sure how to begin here, because the only one that really knows of my decision is my husband. And I can tell you he says “If it makes you happy, then do it.” but on the inside, he really doesn’t want me to. So what am I dancing around here? Weight loss surgery. Yes, I took the first steps towards weight loss last month. Last Monday I had my first of three visits with the dietician. It was a long appointment and she spelled out everything that the next two visits and surgery (food wise) would entail. It was a lot to ingest. So to start I have to do a written food log or journal for her to bring back with me at the end of April. Doing it electronically I’m okay at logging, on paper. Let’s just say this will be a challenge. I was also told I will have to give up three things that I really enjoy about food right now and I’ll admit, I’m kind of bummed. Caffeine, sparkling water, and my chocolate will be a thing of the past by the end of this three months. I was also told I can’t gain any weight for the next three months, if I do the insurance company may refuse my claim. So, there’s my beginning. I’ve started my paper journal and so far I’m not doing to bad. I haven’t gained any weight, but it’s only been one week. I’m alternating coffee with herbal tea to wean myself off the coffee. I can have decaf, but right now I’m not wanting to even go that route. I’m also alternating sparkling water with flat water that has been infused with fruit or veggies. Part of me wants to tell my family, part of me wants to keep it a secret until I’ve completed the first steps. For right now I think I’ll keep it to myself until I see how I do.